I get SUPER EXCITED about the New Year – I see it as an opportunity for reflection and change. I love to look back on the year, see where I am, where I am not, as compared to my goals and aspirations.
This year was the first year I did not write down my resolutions – and I’m paying for it. I have no way to measure myself, and I feel like I wasted most of the year. I gave up on 2014 about 4-5 months ago. A lost year for me. I wanted to do so much, but did almost none of what I wanted. This year, I’m starting early.
I feel like I’ve already started on my 2015 resolutions. I do not want another year to go by and be in the same place. I’m serious about making a plan and working that plan….
One of the biggest changes that happened already is a job change. I really wanted to call Zuora home, but they were like family that only wants you to stay a few days, not for a while. I tried my best to stay, worked really hard to do something amazing. . Alas, I clued in that we weren’t on the same page so I moved on. Bums me out as I loved the technology and all my customers… but unfortunately it wasn’t meant to be. I’ve been at the new company for a month now, so far so good. I’m taking a lead, doing what I love (to organize things, make a difference), and learning new things. I am looking forward to finding my professional home – the place that feels like home when I’m not home. So far so good. So far there aren’t any real politics that I can see, just a great bunch of good, solid, really smart people all working towards the same objective/goal/outcome. Great technology and culture. I feel like I fit in. It will be a matter of time before I figure out if I do or not.
I’ve spent the last 10 months trying to break up with A-Train. I love him, but I’m convinced we are not meant to be a couple. For a variety of
excuses reasons, It hasn’t happened yet. He is a super nice guy, I love being around him, we just aren’t a good team. My fear of losing him as a friend stops me from doing what is best for the both of us. Although I still do not know why in the world he wants to be with me – I’m a horrible girlfriend. I will someday provide a list of all the ways I’m a horrible girlfriend….
Anyway, one resolution is to write more. I like to write, its therapeutic for me, and I love the advice/wisdom I get from my readers. So expect more this year from me. I’m ready to deliver.
Keep me honest folks – hold me to my goals and commitments!