I know I’ve been out of touch, I’ve been working WAY TOO MUCH. I’ve not had a second to myself, let alone for anyone else. So much has happened since May…
First and foremost, I am alive. Just barely.. I’ve been working 80+ hours for months now. Working on a work project that has consumed my life and not in a good way. I gained the 10 pounds I lost last year, I am working for a woman who I can I only describe as grotesque. Needless to say I’m looking for a new job.
Professionally I’ve exhausted myself – I’m completely burned out. Totally spent. I love the company I work for, I hate the person I’m working with. I do love the other 95% of the people, but unfortunately to stay in my region I have to work with the person I’m working with. And IMO, life it just too short to work with poisonous people. So on the hunt I go.
My personal relationships have suffered. I have not seen most of my friends for months now… and the ones I have seen it has felt rushed. I’m disappointed in myself for letting this happen.
Just because I’ve not written doesn’t mean I’ve not kept up with you, my favorite bloggers. I love you GG and PG.. you both have kept me going this year. Even though I’ve not responded to either of you, I love your posts. Thank you for sharing your life experiences with me. When I’ve needed a connection after long hours at the office, you are the first two I’ve turned to. I’m also interested in Struggling Dad.. Anyone know what happened to him? Did he drop communication due to life’s complexities or can catch up with him on another blog site?
Regarding my main relationship, I’m in one, which is even surprising to me. ATrain has stuck with me, has taken care of me and the girls – He is a great dad/father to the cats, and a great partner to me. He has made more than his fair share of salads, dinners, and plans. I’ve been an absentee partner for the most part, I’m lucky to have him, that he has been so patient with me. I tear up thinking about his kindness and generosity towards me over the last 6 months.
For those of you that have gotten this far, I was able to purchase the house I remodeled and was living in. The ironic thing is that the girls and I now live with ATrain so I am trying to rent my home. I’m renting it furnished. I did not have a problem renting it in August. I’ve got 3 people interested for September. I am on the hook to show it to these folks during Labor Day Weekend.
I’m in Boston this week working and visiting with one of my best friends who stopped blogging years ago Unicorns and Rainbows. I do wish she would start blogging again – she has been doing interesting things and I’m sure her parents and I (along with you) would love to know the latest and greatest.
So, if I had to summarize my position right now I would say that I’m feeling fat, un-confident, searching for a new path/job/lot in life, have a great support system with my boyfriend ATrain, friends C-Licious, Free Bird, Smarty Pants, and family including Mom and Dad, AbFab, Lil’ Darlin, and my Twin. I just need to get off my ass and do something to change where I’m at, the situation I’m in. Stop complaining and DO SOMETHING.
I’ll write more and post pictures of my Santa Cruz weekend soon.
Thanks for reading.
Hellon Paula, glad you back on the radar, your prolonged absence has been felt. I am sorry about working for a an unpleasant person. Things like that can make ones life just feel hopeless. All in all you sound well and happy, outside of work. Revel in that and look for a different work setting when you can.
Be well H.S.