Everything I tell you. I had a date tonight. Date #2 with a guy…(I don’t think he is going to be around enough to give him a nickname) my first date with him was last week, tonight was the second. He is cute enough… charming enough.. interesting enough. He is totally into me (which is flattering). He took me to what I consider the nicest place in the town – great food, great atmosphere, and it is not cheap. He didn’t dress up (I did, and I looked hot!!). All in all, it was a nice evening, certainly nothing to complain about.
But I have to say, I would take this evening and gladly trade it in for a year of salt-free bean dinners/evenings with my My Mr. Big. We would find recipes to experiment with …. enjoy each others company, talk, laugh.. have great sex. All things I miss dearly. I know that I’ve got to stop comparing potential candidates with the love of my past. Tonight I finally realized that I’m actively seeking someone to replace him… and nothing/nobody can do that. He was something special – we had something that just worked.
I get it – the goal is to find someone new….someone that is available, that is interested in spending time with me, AND that I’m interested in spending time with. I’ve not been able to do that yet….. Anyone have advice on how to do this?
So with that, I will bid you good night… and will write my next entry about the live bird the cats brought in 5 minutes before my date showed up….