New Year is Here. I’m Ready.

I’m super excited about the New Year. The last few years have not been good for me. That’s why I’ve not written – no one needs another sad sob story to read or relate to. BUT, changes have been underway, and 2015 is going to be a great year. Which I’m happy to share. Not the Facebook “I’m great and my family is perfect” kind of post/dialog, but a real-life, grateful that I’m here without all the “god bless” and “thank you god” shit. God didn’t help me down or up, it was all me. And I’m taking all the credit for it. I waited patiently for something to happen and nothing did. When I got sick of waiting, shit happened. I MADE IT HAPPEN. I did it. I realized the problem, I fixed it, or at the very least have started pushing the ball in a forward motion.

Anyway, the last couple of years have been horrible. Every time I felt like the tide was turning in my favor, I was wrong. Life socked it to me, year over year. and it didn’t get better for a very long time. Until 5 months ago. When I decided to stop waiting, things started changing. What did I do? I stopped being so passive. I stopped waiting for:

Work to recognize me and I recognized me. I recognized the amount of time I put into a job that I loved but wasn’t paying me back – financially or professionally.
My boyfriend to save me. He has means and he likes to share. Just so happens that it’s not with me. And that is o.k. I can fix what I created…. and I’ve started down that path. When I succeed, I’ll know I did it, that it was all me.. (there will be a lot of discussion on what a Parter is in 2015)

And now I’m going to get out of my own way and I’m going to make shit happen. I felt old, tired, and irrelevant a few months ago. I’m moving towards feeling younger, revitalized, and more creative….. I’ll outline my plan in my New Years Resolution post..

Exciting things to come this year.. yeah for me, yeah for 2015! I hope you all have or feel the same level of excitement and energy. If not, I get it, believe me I do..