The move is over. All items have been moved into my new home. I now have the task of unpacking all my boxes, finding places for the things I have. I moved from 1900 sq ft to 1200 sq ft so as I unpack, I will be selling stuff. I do not plan on putting anything on storage – if I don’t use it, out it goes – I don’t need it.
The reason I write today is because of what is on my mind. I have been very stressed out about my financial situation (no more cash cushion), the move, and my job. Yes, when it rains, it pours. I think there is a new strategy at play at work, and I will not be a part of this new strategy… this news has come at a very bad time for me given my jump back into real estate.
This is the time that I would really love to have someone in my life that I could count on, that I could lean on. Life is not easy – it often throws us curve-balls, I get it, but its at these times that it would be nice to have someone in my corner. I am scared, I am stressed, I have a ton of anxiety…. I would love to be able to turn to a partner, my partner, and have them just give me a hug and say, “it will be o.k., we’ll get thru it together”. I’d like to say I’ve had this in my life, but I haven’t. I’ve had boyfriends that have comforted me, give me the support I needed, but alas it was not permanent. My EX, did not know how to be supportive (compassionate, empathetice, etc..), but I thought that would change with marriage… FYI, it did NOT.
Anyway, I think it takes a lot of work to have a relationship where someone truly has your back and you theirs. That you can trust and they trust you – with your lives. I have friends who have relationships like this, and its so nice to see its possible.
My friends have been very supportive… My peeps definitely take care of me, support me when I’m down, out, or otherwise dis-enchanted. I’m lucky to have them in my life.