So, today is the LAST evening we will spend in our current home. The cats and I are a movin’. The place the ladies and I have call home, that we have rented for the last year and a half. I cannot believe it, the beautiful craftsman home that has protected and comforted me during my reclusive years….. I will never forget her. I do wish I could have purchased her, but it just wasn’t meant to be.
My move tomorrow, into my new home, is what was meant to be. Its a new adventure, a new beginning for me. I’m moving into my new home – a home I rearchitected (moved some walls around), designed, and pulled together. I’ve worked with a wonderful construction crew who have given me guidance thru the process, and the outcome is more beautiful than I could have imagined on my own. I know its the right place for me, in this time in my life. But its different, and I’m still nervous… my heart is beating rapidly…. it feels surreal (I feel like I’m watching myself go thru it vs. really living it). I think a part of the surrealness is just not believing is truly happening…
I am very lucky, very lucky indeed for this opportunity. I’m excited to get moved in and begin living my life. I know I will next, become reclusive for a bit (once again)… but I will blossom I’m sure in the new year (I’m not much of a holiday type person.. too much focus on the wrong things like gifts and money vs. family and friends).. Anyway, I will get my new home in order quickly so that I can get back out there.
As most of you know, I’m really into New Years Day, but I am into the reflection and new beginnings that a new year gives us the opportunity to experience. . I’ve already started reflecting on this year, what I’ve accomplished and not accomplished, how I’ve changed, how my goals have changed…. and looking inside myself to figure out where I want to go/what I want to do/be in the next year.
O.k.. so, now that I’ve taken some time to reflect on what is happening, I need to get off my duff and finish packing. Three strong men are coming to my house at 9am tomorrow to move my furniture and boxes into the new house. We should be done by noon. So by noon PST, the hardest part of the day will be over, and the settling in process can begin.
Paula's Ponderings 