So much has happened in these last few months.
- Family – AbFab’s husband lost his legs in a work accident. Here is a news video of how he survived – inspirational. They are both so strong, so resilient. The kids – Mayonaise and Shanaynay are doing well and they love their dad with or without legs.
- Travel – I had an opportunity to go to Turkey and I did it. I went to Turkey for 10 days with one of my best friends – Unicorns. She suggested it one week, we booked our tickets the next week, then we left the next week. Impromtu. It was one of, if not the best trip I’ve ever taken. More on this later.
- Work – not going well at all…the product doesn’t work and leadership is lacking – in both inspiration and direction. Every team works in silo’s – Sales selling product we don’t have, Product delivering product that doesn’t work. Since I work with customers every day, I feel the chaos. These people, our customers, put their careers on the line to purchase and adopt our technology. And we consistently let them down.
So, I’ve made a decision. I made it a few weeks ago, but I’ve been letting it stew in my brain for a bit before making it a reality. I am resigning. I will let my manager know on Friday. My last day will be Nov. 13th. I am resigning before having another job. My plan is to get centered again. This will include spending time with myself, getting healthy, traveling, and reconnecting with family and friends.
Not only will I be starting an exercise regimen, I will be traveling. I plan to go back to Istanbul during the Thanksgiving holiday. Then I plan to spend a few weeks in Utah with AbFab and her family. I will also see my twin sister and my parents. My goal during this time away from work is to focus on me and doing what makes me happy. And in my spare time I will look for work.
I am aware that this is extremely risky. But I am burnt out. I may just do some consulting work and continue to think well into 2016… Only time will tell what opens up to me. But I’m not doing “this” again – busting my ass for a company that doesn’t appreciate the work that I do. I will not make myself physically sick with stress and work overload. I WILL find a great company, that has great leadership, and that will appreciate my skills, abilities, and what I bring to the table. That’s it. Until this time, I will find consulting jobs that will support me. That is my decision.
So yes, I am throwing caution to the wind and moving forward with what my heart is telling me is the right thing for me. Although I am tidying up things around the house and checking out local yoga studios, I will officially begin my journey of self-rediscovery on Nov. 2nd with Oprah and Deepak 21 day meditation series – Become What You Believe. I plan to update this blog very regularly as I go through my reinvention – writing thoughts down really helps me.
If any of you have ever done this before, I’d love to hear your thoughts on what worked, what didn’t.. Or if you haven’t, I’d love to hear what you would do if you made such a decision – would you travel, stay at home, visit with family, friends, etc… ?
My next blog will be about my experience in Turkey – which I loved – both the country and the people.