I have two weeks to go until my vacation with my mom – the one where we reveal our new beach bodies. My goal was to lose 10 lbs before this vacation. Seemed like it would be easy to shake the 10 lbs, but it has NOT been. BUT, the good news is that I am now officially down 9 lbs. 9 lbs!! I have broken the 120 mark (finally consistently below it). I have exactly one more pound to go …. but with a lot of veggies and water, I feel confident that I will be down the full 10 pounds by August 23rd.
I am so excited about it – last weekend I unpacked all my “skinny clothes” and tried them on. To my delight, most of them fit! I kept the ones that were in style and got rid of the rest. I NEVER plan to go back to the heavier weight again. I feel so much better, more confident now. I can only imagine I how I will feel when I loose another 10 pounds!!
As I lose the weight, I do feel better, mybody feels better, and I have more energy. However, its my thoughts that have to change most … I do still feel like “the fat kid”… and I am very conscious NOW of how my weight effected me. And it is not how people treated me, its how I treated myeslf; the way I feel about myself.
I’m working on it, changing my mental thoughts will take a while. In the meantime, I am making progess by wearing clothes that fit me better, more slender/slimming clothes vs. the clothing that I was wearing to “hide” my body. I will also work on walking a bit straigher, more upright, and with more confidence. My lesson learned so far is that weight loss is as much of a mental shift as it is a weight shift…
Paula's Ponderings 