Sandwiched Between Two People.

sleepover-girls-pillowfightAnd it’s not that bad. The two folks?  My nieces.  Snore like men with heavy drinking habits.  I’m watching Boyhood – which is a great movie – which I picked – and the girls so graciously wanted to watch with me and soon passed out.  Loved the movie, girls.. not so much.

I am absolutely in love with these girls – but they do snore like no tomorrow – and these are the folks I’m sandwiched in-between.  I know, LUCKY ME.

I’m in Utah, with my family, working on a family matter that required my attention.  I have to go back to work in 24 hours….  I’ve so enjoyed my time with family that it’s hard to think about going back to work.  I’m desperate to sell my condo and buy myself a duplex so I can visit more often at a reduced cost… It will happen, it’s only a few years away.

Life has a way of unfolding in a way that you never expected.  My life is no different – I never imagined not having kids…  but it happened that way.  I think about this “life choice” every day.  But when I’m with my nieces I do not –  I can’t imagine a different life.  I love them more than the whole world, I would give up everything if it would guarantee their safety … I can’t imagine loving people more than I love my niece and her babes.

Maybe there is more love in store for  me in my life – but I honestly can’t imagine it.  I am open to it, but when I’m here in Utah, I can’t imagine a better life for me. Sandwiched between my favorite girls on the planet.  Love at it’s finest – snoring and all.

Kids Are Hard Work!

Yes, I know, it has been quite a while since my last post.   I’ve been busy setting up house, working, traveling, purchasing portable heaters for the house (the winter has set in) and  cat beds for the darling furry beasts, etc..   I have thought about writing almost every day as one would expect, as I have had a lot of ‘interesting’ thoughts to share…

This week I am in Utah, staying with my parents, and visiting with family.  I took a few days off, and decided to spend it with the kids in my life.  I have two nieces that I’m close with, and one  of them has children of her own…  They are all just darling, fantastic kids, and a blast to be around (meaning they are well behaved AND full of personality).

Thursday night I spent the night at my nieces house,”A’s” house, who has two girls of her own:  “Mayonaise” is 2.5 years old, “Shanaynay” is 7 months old.  We made dinner, hung out, caught up, downloaded some ringtones to my new phone… have a great time together until we hit the sack.  Around 11pm  Mayonaise woke up screaming and crying because of a new rash that was hurting her…  Ashley took off her diaper and got her in the tub, I ran to 7-11 (the only game in this small town after 10pm)…  got a bunch of random stuff and brought it home (Neosporin, Preporation H, Tums, and Pepto Bismol.  We decided the Prep H was what was needed and applied it generiously to her hiney and back…. She did go back to sleep… but I was worried about her.  Since I was sleeping with her, I kept waking up every hour or two, finally up at 4am and unable to go back to sleep until 6am.

Needless to say, I did NOT want to get up..when “A” and the kids got up.  but I did…  Played with the girls, showered, went to pick up my other niece “Ney”, and here I am, hanging with a 10 year old.  She is such a creative funny girl, we spent the evening coloring and talking….   And now,  I’m watching “Home Alone” for the 1000th time.

The thing is, I’m exhausted.  Completely and utterly exhausted.  I’m having difficulties keeping my eyes open I’m so tired.. and I will sleep soundly tonight without the help of a sleeping aid. 

All in all I’m having a blast – below  is a picture of just a moment in time – picture time.  I tried to get a picture of me and the girls to no avail.  Keeping one straight was a chore.. . getting both straight and looking forward at the same time… impossible. 

2009 Dec Paula & Kids
Picture Time


My hat is off to anyone who takes care of children on a daily basis… and honestly, I have no idea how a person actually works outside the home AND take care of kids.. especially young kids.   Yes, I know its  rewarding and you get used to being/feeling exhausted all the time…(at least thats what all my friends and family tell me).   But I’m glad someone else signed up for it and not me…  I looovvveee my sleep.   

Heading back to work on Monday seems like a vacation…. kids are hard work!! Darling, fun, but a lot of work.